It’s been so long since I blogged, and I think it might be one of the reasons why I’ve felt so extremely emotional lately. Sometimes venting to a sea of strangers is a lot easier than talking to a close friend. There are times you just need to let it out without having someone tell you that it will all be okay when you know it is most definitely not.
You know those times where you sort of drift away from a person? You don’t mean to but it happens. Suddenly you realise that you’re putting way more into a relationship than the other person is? That’s how I feel right now. Not that the other party didn’t do anything, but I came to realise there is a point in which being stressed out over a friendship is not what a friendship is about. So I backed away slowly, giving the other party time to start initiating things more, and instead found myself afraid to even send a text message in fear that it will just sit there mocking me. So as I listen to Passenger, Skyping with one of my best friends, perhaps it is time to let it go. There are other people that will constantly be there to support me and I thank them so much for that.
Just because you give up on someone doesn’t mean you can’t mourn their loss. Yet you can’t upset yourself over it constantly, let it go, move on. Read a good book, take a spin class, travel to a different country. There are so many more things to experience and far more interesting people for you to meet.